Current mood:

sad

From the Brink
Before anything else, I'd like apologize deeply for not having been on to let those of you on my list know what has happened.

I don't know how else to say it, so I'm just going to dive right in.

Right around New Year 2008, my mom had an accident (she had fallen and hit her head) and for a while after that, we didn't know whether she was going to make it (a previous head operation had made her more fragile). Needless to say, I dropped everything, all my plans. I was paralyzed, and not just with fear. From there, I spiraled into depression.

I haven't written anything over the past year. Sometimes I think I see a glimmer of an idea, so I get hopeful and jot that down in a notebook. But when I try to catch it, develop it, it disappears. It's like grabbing at mist or trying to keep water in your hand. The frustration feeds itself.

Gameplay has been nil too.

As for my future plans regarding my sims and the stories I wrote, those are up in the air. I honestly don't know when my drive will return, if it will return. For now I'm trying to find a new webspace for them and my pictures. It's daunting task, because my Scrapbook is full to bursting. I don't know whether I have the capacity to do that as well.

I have missed you all. Terribly. Hope everyone is doing okay.